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Astro PSA: Full Moon in Aquarius

August 3, 2020 in Astro Matters, Country Matters, Ruby Intuition, Spirit Matters

If you’re feeling wild-eyed today, it may not just be the news. There’s also a full moon taking place in innovative Aquarius. Also known as the sturgeon moon, this lunar aspect is most concerned with the human condition–but transpersonally. Expect significant tweaks to social, professional, and civic networks rather than your most intimate relationships. That said, because we’re in dramatic Leo season and this full moon is squaring shit-stirring Uranus, these, ahem, “tweaks” may arrive at a super-high voltage.

My suggestion? Get ahead of these upsets by asking yourself: “How am I not myself in larger groups? How do my issues impair others’ comfort and expression? What overall patterns impair rather than boost useful group dynamics?” Better yet: go outside and ask the moon herself. She’ll answer in your dreams.

The Water Bearer prizes freedom and Leo prizes authenticity, so chances are good this week will disrupt toxic hierarchies of all shapes and sizes. So your big-girl pants (everyone!), because we’re in for breakthroughs, not just breakdowns.

To harness this full moon magic for yourself or a loved one, book a reading or a ritual.

I Wish You Enough

August 2, 2020 in Age Matters, Cat Lady Matters, Church Matters, City Matters, Country Matters, Essays, Ruby Intuition, Spirit Matters

Something occurred to me today as I strode home from the greenmarket with my produce and a bunch of glorious sunflowers that the vendor had slipped into my bag as a surprise.

“This might be enough.”

To be sure, “enough” is a relative term. As I write this, I still don’t have enough in my accounts to cover my expenses a few months out nor do I have a steady income flow. In this way, I am in step with many many Americans, as well as people across the world.

My therapist says that I have a tendency to focus on the bright side of matters in a way that borders on dissociative, a fact that may surprise those who read my last post.

Trust me when I say it takes a lot for me to acknowledge when things aren’t working well. In fact, it’s a muscle I’m developing in real time. I used to fear disappearing into the abyss if I recognized its existence. But I’ve come to accept we can only solve a problem when we can acknowledge it.

That said, having transcended so many hard times in my life has granted me an insouciance I never experienced as a younger woman. Yes, I am still broke as I write this, but over the last few days so many have shared sweet solidarity and unexpected donations that, for this week at least, I have fresh, healthy food to eat and, for this month at least, Grace and I have a place to live in a city I love. Continue Reading →

The Ultimate Fool’s Errand

July 30, 2020 in Age Matters, Cat Lady Matters, Essays, Etiquette Matters, Film Matters, Queer Matters, Ruby Intuition, Spirit Matters

Only once has someone broken up with me in a way that I immediately and completely accepted. Really, this was quite an achievement, because historically I date people off and on forever unless they reveal themselves to be complete sociopaths or get married. (Although my aversion to marriage is well-documented, I am not in the business of making third parties miserable.)

But though this beau was neither married nor a complete sociopath, his breakup line was so effective that we never spoke again once he uttered it. In a low, caressing voice he said: “It seems this is not what we had hoped.”

In point of fact, he was absolutely right. We’d been dating for four months, which is exactly how long it takes for sexual chemistry to wear off when there’s no other glue in place. I won’t bog you down with the details (he did too much coke and considered me too much of a prude) but as I write this I can assure you that, 20 years later, the only real memory I have of that relationship are those nine magic words. Continue Reading →

"All, everything I understand, I understand only because I love."
― Leo Tolstoy