I don’t have enough money for my expenses in May. I’m not talking moisturizer and HBO. I’m talking rent and food. I’m already on Medicaid. That was super hard to admit I needed.
Since I was 35, I haven’t needed a resume. Jobs–research gigs and editing gigs, columns, commentating spots–have shown up when I’ve needed them. My reputation preceded me and for a long time that was a good thing.
In 2017 my NY1 show was cancelled the same week that my gig as the editor of a labor journal ended. I’d held the NY1 job for 6 years. I’d been editing the labor journal for 16 years.
I still had another job–the writer of essays and reviews for Signature Reads.
Then they went out of business.
I was living off my savings, but they weren’t small. I’d received settlements and I still had a dream. My dream was to write and sell a book.
It is still my dream.
But independence has also been my dream. To support myself with money from work I like and care about.
That dream is dying on the vine. Continue Reading →