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Astro PSA: Lunar Eclipse in Gemini

I don’t know about you, but I haven’t felt much like talking today. God knows there are plenty of reasons, but mostly I chalk it up to this lunar eclipse, coinciding with a beaver full moon in Gemini. Lunar eclipses obscure the obvious and illuminate the hidden, and the Twins are notorious Chatty Cathys. So today is about what we don’t communicate and why. About actively listening not only to each other but to the parts of ourselves that we rarely acknowledge—-in our brains, in our bodies, in our hearts. Ask yourself: “What don’t I want to say but should? What do I say that I shouldn’t? Who needs to be heard that is rarely granted a voice?” I for one am aware that my bad back has been broadcasting stories I’ve been trying to forget and that eclipses express exactly what we most repress. If, like me, yours is a truth that dare not speak its name, try writing it down. Sending lots of golden quills, kittens.

How to Be a Calendar Girl

Ever since 2016. we’ve been blaming our increasingly dystopic existence on the year. Remember 2016? Even before Trump was elected, it seemed like everyone was dying and we just kept blaming it on the year rather than a shift in the collective. Since then, it’s been “Screw you, 2017/2018/2019/2020” as if a simple flip of a calendar page would wave a magical wand over the unrest in our lives. As if time itself was Santa Claus.

All in all, the Gregorian calendar year is extremely arbitrary. Why should the new year start on January 1? Why not at the vernal equinox, when the astrological new year begins and when nature rebirths itself? Or in September, when the Jewish new year begins and we all sharpen our pencils for new learning, new endeavors? In my Ruby Intuition practice, I encourage people to behave as if their personal new year begins on their solar return, when the sun is in the exact position of their birth and there’s divine wind on their backs.

But you know what? That divine wind only helps us along our paths if we’re already moving in the right direction. So rather than expecting something external to change our lives—be it a calendar or a new president—we must accept that while we don’t have compete control over anything, we do have agency. The power to respond to circumstances–to decide how to spend time, money, energy. So it’s about staying practical and positive, receptive and proactive—about prayer and putting pressure on elected officials.

My personal new year takes place in the last degree of Capricorn, 19 days after the Gregorian Calendar begins. I’ve always loved that–it’s taken the edge off New Year’s Eve drama, granted me a balsamic period before I roll up my sleeves for my own reboot. The downside is that even when I was small this meant no one had the energy or will to celebrate my birth. January 19 is often the coldest day of the year, and it arrives when everyone is broke and and burnt out after months of holiday season partying. Usually I celebrate the occasion myself with lobster and champagne in the mermaid woods. I’m not complaining.

I mention all this because in 2021 I turn 50 on the day Donald Trump leaves the White House. And while I consider it weirdly childish to blame our problems on a given calendar year, I truly believe that the unprecedented devastation that began in March 2020 will not have a chance to end until this white supremacist reality king has been ousted once and for all. So for the first time since I’ve been alive, every American’s new year will begin the same day that mine does. Such sweet solidarity as I struggle on what recently has been a very painful pilgrim’s path. But you know what? Only if we meet the universe halfway can any of us really turn a page in 2021.

Here’s looking at us, kids.

To Sleep Again

Eleven years ago today I broke my neck and foot and sustained a severe concussion at a Boston production of Sleep No More. I was taking in this annoyingly avant-garde staging of Macbeth (yes, the cursed play) with my best friend and first boyfriend, all of us reunited for our 20th high school reunion, when I pushed through one of its many mysterious curtains to….fall in the darkness onto a hardwood floor from a stage 15 feet above. The Punch Drunk players had been too punch drunk to safely rope it off, apparently. Continue Reading →

"All, everything I understand, I understand only because I love."
― Leo Tolstoy